Living Angst-Free

I've finally come to terms with the fact that I am probably not going to be the leader of a commune of suplicants who all come together purely to express their love for me and feed me peeled grapes. As much as this would make the world a better place, I just can't see it happening.

Now I have learned to live with the sadness and emptiness that is the separation from my people, bravely marching on with only my job, my family, my marriage and my friends to sustain me.

This may sound like I'm being snarky and complaining about needy people, but I am not. I am truly talking about myself and the trouble I think we all have with feeling separation and loneliness from time to time. I've been working on accepting that feeling as a part of the suffering inherent in life as a human being. I'm trying to become glad for it, because it is a part of being human.
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howdy. i'm jeannie, i'm 14, and i live in tokyo, japan. a lot of my friends are angsty these days and it feels like hardly anyone is willing to think positive. but... nobody wants to be self-hateful and sad, right? ... right?

so yeah. i'm new here and i'm just introducing myself. *hat tip*
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Try doing this today.

Never accept any criterion that makes you miserable. Never accept any morality that makes you feel guilty. Never accept anything that is trying to enforce something upon you against your simple nature. Just be yourself and you are perfect.


Sometimes life feels like this...

When Alice was at the Mad Hatter's tea party, she noticed that no jam was available. She asked for jam, and the Mad Hatter said, "Jam is served every other day."
Alice protested, "But there was no jam yesterday either!"
"That's right," said the Mad Hatter. "The rule is: always jam yesterday and jam tomorrow, never jam today...because today is not every other day!"

Osho says that life feels this way because we aren't living in the here-now. What is your here-now like?

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Fear comes into being when I desire to be in a particular pattern. To live without fear means to live without a particular pattern. When I demand a particular way of living that in itself is a source of fear.

J. Krishnamurti

I need this written on my mirror

Our life is frittered away by detail,
Simplify, Simplify, Simplify!
I say let your affairs be two or three
and not a hundred or a thousand.
~ Henry David Thoreau

I really think I need a mirror with space around it for all these sayings. I wonder how I would go about it.

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I am grateful for friends who care about me, that love me and worry about me when I go off and sulk in dark corners and want to bring me out of them.

I am grateful for those I love, that I am able to tell them that I love them and they believe me and hear it in their hearts.

My best friend sent me a card on my birthday that says "Our hearts decide who is family." She is right. I am thankful for the family that has chosen me, as well as the family I was born into and married into.

I miss you Ash. Please be safe, wherever you are. I love you.


Shake it off.

To see into the heart of things, one has to rely on oneself. Others cannot do it for you.
~ Yunmen

Go to fuckyoulist and get it all out of your system, then shake it off and take a deep breath. Take a shower. Feel what it's like to peel away your own pain and leave it behind in a dirty towel. Try it. You might like it. And when it comes back, repeat as necessary. Eventually, it will give up and go away.

Letting go.

If your mind is fixed on a certain spot,
it will be seized by that spot, and
no activities can be performed efficiently.
Not to fix your mind anywhere is essential.
Not fixed anywhere, the mind is everywhere.
The Original Mind is like water which flows freely,
whereas the deluded mind is like ice.
There is a passage in the Diamond Sutra that says:
“The mind should operate without abiding anywhere.”

- Takuan (1573-1645)